I have a lot of reasons to smile lately. but I still can't do it sincerely.

dammit.

I knew it. it was all a big fat lie.
but I still believed it.

I HATE MYSELF. asdkamsdka fuck.
I wanted to... I don't know.
I guess I just wanted to feel.
well... hurt is what I got. and I can really feel it.

dammit.