"you shine brighter than anyone does"

you are the light of my life.
you are that one person I cherish the most.
I could never ever live without you.
and right now I really need you to hold me together.
I know you would do that. without a doubt.
I know you would... if you could.
if we could be together.

I will love you til the day I die. promise.
and you'll never know how much I wish you could promise me the same thing back...




don't you ever dare stop shining.

"I left my conscience pressed between the pages of the bible in the drawer. what did it ever do for me? I say"

why does my life always have to be messed up in some way?
why can't I have peace for a while?
why can't I enjoy my life? be satisfied about it?
why do I have to be blue all the fucking time?
and feel miserable and useless and just want to die?

I only want my head to be quiet. for a little while.
otherwise I'm just gonna pop. literally.

"sometimes I feel broken, can't get fixed"

but self mutilation is not the fucking answer, asshole.

all's well that ends well.

she will not waste away her dreams for you.
she will not shed a tear for you.
she will never forget you.
she will love you for ever.
but she knows it is going to be okay from now on.
she is okay.

a smile lights up her face.
she is hopeful again.
thank you.

"I'd photocopy all the things that we could be if you took the time to notest me"

I hope someday you'll be able to see all the good things I have in me.
not so you can love me.
just cause I want you to know what you've missed.

"you really broke my heart"

people love to fuck up with my head.
and I love to let them do it anytime they feel like doing it.


but not anymore, no.

new year, new life.

that's all I'm thinking right now.
and you're only gonna be part of this new life of mine if you want to.
I'm not gonna push it anymore.
it's your call now.
I'm going on a different direction.
if you wanna come, it's alright.
if you don't, just leave me alone and I'll get over everything.
just because I wanna be happy. with or without you.
and I'm gonna make it. I promise.

"don't tell me lies, just say goodbye"

I would like to tell you a lot of things.
but I know I don't have the right because I should have said them before.
so now I can't tell you how mad I am at you for forgetting everything about me.
because I never told you how much all you said meant to me.
and how much you mean[t] to me.


everything is so messed up right now.
you really fucked my brain.

"guess I'm wishing my life away with this things I'll never say"

WHY CAN'T YOU JUST SEE HOW MUCH I CARE?
alright, I'm really mad now.