"you blew my mind, left me behind and now I'm living in your past"

this is not love. I know it.
love is supposed to be nice.
and this feels anything but nice.
I don't know what is it that I'm feeling but it's definitely not love.
I know simply because I'm alone in this.

sweetest song ever.

There are people that say what you wanna hear
Even on a raining day they'll tell you the sky is clear
When you really really love someone
Am I right when I say that you want them near?
And if you can't even tell them things that they wanna hear

Always, forever
All things she said
Never say never
Those simple lies that she fed
I will never leave you
All the love I thought she had
But can you blame me, no
Cuz that's what she said
That's what she said
She told me we'd see forever
That's what she said, she said, yeah

And there are people that say what they really mean
She said she'd always be there
She said she'd always care
But just when you think that you can
Trust that someone you love
Tell me why, or do you know
How stars can fall from above?

Cuz you made promises
That you couldn't keep
But you're not hurting yourself
You're only hurting me
Why would you say things that you really didn't mean?
Oh how can I make you see
Just what you did to me?
Oh, you said how much you really cared
Just when I thought I was in love
Girl, how could you dare?
If I were you I could not lie even once
To the face of the one
That I love so much

hopelessly hopeful.

just when I thought it couldn't get worse
you made my life more miserable than I ever thought it could be.

yeah, ladies and gentlemen. it can get worse.

"I sung my song to Mr. Jimmy and he said one word to me, and that was 'dead' "

I want to open my chest and take my heart out so it cannot beat anymore.
I want to NOT feel anything at all.
I want to be heartless and soulless.


I guess you can't always get what you want.

"I am in love with everything that is broken and sometimes I like it that what's broken is in love with me"

I love to sleep.
I love watching movies.
I love ice creams.
I love coffee.
I love my brothers.
I love my true, loyal friends.
I love music.
I love art.
I love my couch.
I love my teddy bear.
I love my mom.
I love to talk.
and I love you...

and I just can't help it.

...or rip me apart.

I want Brendon Urie back in my dreams.
I don't want to dream about you anymore,
because I feel fucking lonely and miserable everytime I wake up and notice you're not here with me.

I want you to want me. but you don't want me. so...
I want you out of my mind, out of my thoughts, out of my life.

it's an easy one: love me or leave me. you choose.

i am overly pessimistic. i only see the worst in everything.

Living
Offers
Nothing
Except
Loss
Illness &
Never
Ending
Suffering.
So I choose death.

I'm boring.